I'm feeling some kind of way today. Today is the day I get the results of the OncotypeDX Test (tells me the chances of the cancer coming back). I find out if I need chemo or not. I know God told me "just surgery" He also told me I will be ok. Me and my family have been given so many blessings sine we found out about the cancer. God has told me this road will be tough and hard but it will be worth it in the end. I was also told that there are more blessings to come.
While looking over the paperwork and my pathology report I notice that my cancer had changed. When it was first found they were a stage 0 and stage 1. By the time of surgery they were a stage 1 and stage 2. The tumors had grown larger. So I know several of my other numbers that they use as markers must have increased. That is why I am concerned. I wonder if the original treatment plan has changed. God has me on this road where I don't know where I going and all I know is I will be ok at the end. This is not easy to surrender all to God (especially when I like to control everything...lol) I know this is a test of my faith and each time I hold on He blesses me for my obedience. I'm not sure if being scared is what I'm feeling or worry.. I don't know what it is I just feel some kind of way.
I still don't like taking a shower. I haven't gotten use to my new body. The good thing is that when I went to church this past Sunday, you couldn't tell anything was gone cause I have so much padding compressing me I look almost even.lol I know I will have new boobs by summer..... There goes that test of patience again I guess..lol.. This blog has been great therapy. I have been reading other survivors stories too. They seem to help a lot. So tonight I find out how I will be spending my spring and summer. All I keep hearing is God saying" I got you"