Tuesday, February 26, 2013

God got this!!!

First my baby girl left for basic this morning  :( :( :(  The Air Force is very lucky to get her.  It was very hard to talk to her with out crying.. but I did it.  She told me I wasn't allowed to  cry while on the phone.  Good thing she couldn't see the tears running down my face.  I am so so proud of her.  This will be an adjustment not having her to talk to everyday.  I have already bought several cute cards to send her along with cute stationary for her letters.

Next I had 2 doctors appointments this morning.  The first was to the hand doctor.  My carpal tunnel has gotten worst and he gave me shots in my hands.  I was also told I will need surgery in about a year if the shots work,  If they don't well I will need it sooner.  Then I also had an appointment with the surgeon that did my hysterectomy because I was having pain in my side.  Well I was told I have all the symptoms of a hernia.and probably need surgery to fix it.   UGGGGGG I am so tired of surgeries and hospitals and doctors.  I have to go get a CAT scan later this week.  The good things is I don't need to have anything done right away.  I am not doing anything until after Nay's graduation from basic.  I am not even telling her until after the graduation.  I want her to focus on her while she is away.

With all that happening you know what.... God got this.  I have put everything in His hands and I know everything will turn out good.  I will be fine and Nay will do great in Tx.  I do miss her already even tho I have talked to her several times today. God is watching over my baby. I am looking forward to her graduation in April.  God got this!!

Thursday, February 21, 2013


I am still cancer free!!!!!!!  It seemed like I was sitting in that office forever.  Everything came up clear.  I won't need another mammogram until next year.  A huge weight has been taken off my shoulders.  Now I can focus on managing my pain and side effects from the meds.  It really suck I have to take them but if I don't there is a 46% chance of the cancer coming back.  I'm just happy this appointment with Dr. Schultz went well and is over with.

Wednesday, February 20, 2013

A lil scared

It has been awhile since I have updated my blog.  Well I have been going thru a lot of changes lately.  I have been having a rough time with the cancer meds I was put on   Letrozole.  It did not like me.  I have bad bone pain and fatigue and it cause my fibromyalgia to flair up real bad.  I have been put on several more pills.  UGGGGG I am still hanging in there.  Tomorrow I go for my mammogram.  I am nervous.  The last time I went thinking that nothing was wrong, I was given a very rude awaking.  I was suppose to also get a MRI but the insurance company doesn't think it is medically necessary... All I can do is shake my head cause it was a MRI that found the microscopic cancer in my right breast so it was definite I needed a mastectomy. 

I have been in a ho hum mood lately.  I have to go to physical therapy to help manage the pain.  I really wish I could go back to work.  But it won't be happening any time soon. I will be trying another medicine and hope the side effects are not as bad.  If my body doesn't agree with this new one I only have 1 other med to try.  Then it just using the lesser of the 3 evils... my doctor's words. 

I am thankful I can still care for my family on my good days. It is frustrating not being able to do as much as I use to but I am still alive.  Now back to this mammogram tomorrow.  *Big Sigh*  I go for the mammo then I go over to my breast doctor's office.  Praying everything turns out ok.  God sure has me on a rough road.  When things get hard for my I have the tendency to get quiet and turn inward.. But I know I shouldn't keep all these feelings inside.  I am just tired of dealing with cancer and the effects of it on my body.  My fibromyalgia was very manageable until the last couple months.  I know things will get under control in the future.

Tomorrow scares me.