Life

It has been some time since I last posted. Well since the last time I was diagnosed with a very large abdominal hernia so they had to open me up thru my last scar and fix it.  I am doing well.  I am doing well on the new cancer meds.  My daughter Nay is in the Air Force stationed in Texas for tech school.  I miss her so much but it is nice to be able to call her now.

 Life has a funny way of throwing things at you. I have new battle scars now.  They bother me sometimes.  I still remember how my body use to look 1 1/2  years ago. I have also gain a little more weight than I care to have... working on that now.  It seems like every time I feel strong again God throws something else at me.  I am starting to feel strong again, like my old self.  But this is a scary feeling because of the past year.  I am so over operations and hospitals and pain meds.

I thank God for my family, my husband has been so wonderful thru this whole journey.  He makes me feel so beautiful and loved and wanted no matter how I look or feel.  I love him so much.

I have been praying for good health and complete healing of my body. Ohh yeah dealing with menopause has been interesting.  Hot flashes are crazy. But like I said I am doing well. So I am still on this faith journey, I have my highs and lows. So I just hang on to God and enjoy the ride.

God got this!!!

First my baby girl left for basic this morning  :( :( :(  The Air Force is very lucky to get her.  It was very hard to talk to her with out crying.. but I did it.  She told me I wasn't allowed to  cry while on the phone.  Good thing she couldn't see the tears running down my face.  I am so so proud of her.  This will be an adjustment not having her to talk to everyday.  I have already bought several cute cards to send her along with cute stationary for her letters.

Next I had 2 doctors appointments this morning.  The first was to the hand doctor.  My carpal tunnel has gotten worst and he gave me shots in my hands.  I was also told I will need surgery in about a year if the shots work,  If they don't well I will need it sooner.  Then I also had an appointment with the surgeon that did my hysterectomy because I was having pain in my side.  Well I was told I have all the symptoms of a hernia.and probably need surgery to fix it.   UGGGGGG I am so tired of surgeries and hospitals and doctors.  I have to go get a CAT scan later this week.  The good things is I don't need to have anything done right away.  I am not doing anything until after Nay's graduation from basic.  I am not even telling her until after the graduation.  I want her to focus on her while she is away.

With all that happening you know what.... God got this.  I have put everything in His hands and I know everything will turn out good.  I will be fine and Nay will do great in Tx.  I do miss her already even tho I have talked to her several times today. God is watching over my baby. I am looking forward to her graduation in April.  God got this!!

WHEW

I am still cancer free!!!!!!!  It seemed like I was sitting in that office forever.  Everything came up clear.  I won't need another mammogram until next year.  A huge weight has been taken off my shoulders.  Now I can focus on managing my pain and side effects from the meds.  It really suck I have to take them but if I don't there is a 46% chance of the cancer coming back.  I'm just happy this appointment with Dr. Schultz went well and is over with.

A lil scared

It has been awhile since I have updated my blog.  Well I have been going thru a lot of changes lately.  I have been having a rough time with the cancer meds I was put on   Letrozole.  It did not like me.  I have bad bone pain and fatigue and it cause my fibromyalgia to flair up real bad.  I have been put on several more pills.  UGGGGG I am still hanging in there.  Tomorrow I go for my mammogram.  I am nervous.  The last time I went thinking that nothing was wrong, I was given a very rude awaking.  I was suppose to also get a MRI but the insurance company doesn't think it is medically necessary... All I can do is shake my head cause it was a MRI that found the microscopic cancer in my right breast so it was definite I needed a mastectomy. 

I have been in a ho hum mood lately.  I have to go to physical therapy to help manage the pain.  I really wish I could go back to work.  But it won't be happening any time soon. I will be trying another medicine and hope the side effects are not as bad.  If my body doesn't agree with this new one I only have 1 other med to try.  Then it just using the lesser of the 3 evils... my doctor's words. 

I am thankful I can still care for my family on my good days. It is frustrating not being able to do as much as I use to but I am still alive.  Now back to this mammogram tomorrow.  *Big Sigh*  I go for the mammo then I go over to my breast doctor's office.  Praying everything turns out ok.  God sure has me on a rough road.  When things get hard for my I have the tendency to get quiet and turn inward.. But I know I shouldn't keep all these feelings inside.  I am just tired of dealing with cancer and the effects of it on my body.  My fibromyalgia was very manageable until the last couple months.  I know things will get under control in the future.

Tomorrow scares me.  

Tears of joy

One year ago Jan. 4, 2012, my life changed forever.  The phone call I received that evening told me I... ME.. Candy....Candice Bradby had breast cancer.  I knew it was time to stop following my plan for my life and start following Gods plan for my life. 

I didn't post about this on the 4th because my whole family came down with the flu on that day. Well I was on my way to the store to restock on some essentials we needed and I heard this song on the radio                          http://youtu.be/mEv6KdGmESY   All I could do was sit in the car and cry because I am so glad I made it through 2012.  This song is me .... MY Testimony... mine.  This past year has tested everything in me and all I can say is But God..... I survived... I'm cancer free.... I made it through.......  I can't listen to this song with crying because I am so grateful for God's love.  He held on and He got me through one of the toughest years in my life.  I can't wait to see what He has in store for me for 2013.

2012...WOW

This year has been a true challenge for me. My life has changed in ways I never would have imagined. But it all has not been bad.  Because of the cancer we found our baby boy  :)   Breast cancer and the unexpected hysterectomy and my 3 surgeries , 2 1/2 week hospital stay( pneumonia, tube in my nose to my stomach for 2 weeks, IV in my neck, almost heart attack...no muscle damage so it wasn't a heart attack,that is what the Dr.'s said, blood clot in my leg), and burning my hand.  All this happening while we had to move from a house that was literally falling apart, to our church(for a very short time) to our home now.  Our church was going thru transition during the same time.

 I survived!!!! With God and my husband I have made it. My faith in God is even stronger than ever before. I want to thank my mom and dad for their support. It would have been a lot tougher without their help. I want to thank Matt's family, his mom and aunts and cousin for caring for Dylan when I was in the hospital and while I was recovering.  This year I truly discovered that I have the best, loving, compassionate, fabulous children God can create. Chardiney and Jayson took such good care of me when I couldn't care for myself.  They are going to make great spouses and parents. Last but surely not least I want to thank my loving husband Matthew Bradby. He made me feel so loved and beautiful when I didn't feel the same.  He has been by side whenever I needed him.   I love him so much.  He took great care of the boys when I was in the hospital and worked and pastored the church and still came to see me every day. You know the part in the marriage vows for better or worst... I guess we got the worst out the way first. I am so thankful for him.

But this year wasn't all bad.  I added a new member to my family and I love him as tho I birthed him myself.  He has brought so much love and joy to our family... DYLAN.  My oldest child Chardiney graduated from Wesely College and is in grad school and join the Air Force Reserve. I couldn't be more proud of her. My son Jay stepped it up and took on more responsibility with caring for his brother and me.  So proud of the young man he is becoming.

2012 has taught me I am a lot stronger than I thought I was. God does answer prayers. He will take care of all your needs,,, you just have to ask.  Now I did say NEEDS.  Everything happens for a reason.  I am excited for 2013. God has been showing his power in my family's life quite a bit in the last couple of weeks. I will continue to praise Him and give thanks. Thank You Father God for loving me so much!

A Reason for Everything

I never asked why when I was diagnosed with breast cancer.   I knew there was a reason that God has allowed me to go through this journey.  I am starting to see the reason.  I have been meeting more and more women who are newly diagnosed with this monster.  My son just came home today telling me one of his close friend's mother has breast cancer and my daughter just had a friend of a friend come to her for advice because her mother was diagnosed with cancer.  My children and I are able to help others going thru this.  I can actually say it's a blessing because we are able to help others and if you know my kids you know they love being able to help other people.

My question is Why so many women coning down with this?... What is causing this?  I just don't understand.  All I can really do is trust God and allow him to use me and my kids to give others strength and support during this journey.